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Thinking about the future can sometimes be scary. I feel like some people have their lives figured out while I, on the other hand, feel like I am trying to still find my place in the world. Sometimes, I look at the sky and pray for a sign just to know if I am doing okay. Yet, there are times that I just have to do the best in anyway I can. I appreciate the conversations I have with people who used to be on the same place I am now, and it feels comforting that it's not impossible to make it. I am optimistic that I, too, will find my purpose in life. A purpose that would make me wanna wake up in a morning with a warm smile to my face. I know such a day would feel like standing in the rain after years of drought. It would feel like beholding the light after years of being without one. I've been told that fortune favours the brave. And so, I feel maybe it's okay if I don't have everything figured out. Maybe it's okay to not know all the answers right now. I...

I’m starting to learn on how to compress all my sadness and later on I’ll just burst it all at once, it’s like a normal thing for me to do —to just let sadness takes over my inner emotions and just let it sink in, because life is not perfect as we imagine.  There were times where i feel so numb, times where i feel so exhausted, moments where i feel so empty and plain and at the end of the day i promise myself to deal with it later on.  I assure myself to burst it all out and express them as much as i could and for me it’s a practice where i have that time for myself thinking the steps i need to do in order to solve them and for me to breathe and to meditate.  Don’t just let your problems or hurdles consumes you but in order to set yourself in it you must have concrete plans on how are you going to resolve it.  Don’t let bad circumstances takes over your inner emotions but always have that assurance to motivate yourself every time.   I know that ...