Pretending

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When did it become so easy to pretend? Pretending that everything is fine, that I'm not in pain, that I'm not broken, that I'm happy and contented with my life. I'm pretending so hard that I think it's all true. I forgot that I'm just pretending and forcing myself to act in front of everyone. The world has given me so much pain that I'm used at burying my emotions and pretended they didn't exist.

I maybe breaking from the inside but I won't tell them. I can't show the parts of me that I hid so well so that no one gets to know my struggles. But I've become so tired of pretending and wonder if how I'm gonna end this pretention. I've wanted to heal from all the pain I've stuffed deep down and I suddenly realized—I couldn't heal because I kept pretending I wasn't hurt.

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